schizo

a stranger to myself.

     

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

im sick... what a way to start an entry... i have a really hellish sore throat, a promising migraine, a stomache ache waiting to happen and a possible fever... *sigh* im in comp class right now... sick and bored...i want to go home... i just want to lie down and sleep... *sigh* the times i want to stick a wooden (blunt) stake into my heart and hurl my dying body off of a mountain... *sigh* ack!!! *sigh* so how is everyone? is there anyone still alive out there? i might be dying... hehe... but dont mind me... arent you all used to me by now? *sigh* hug me? i need a hug... *sigh*

Friday, June 18, 2004

its friday... the first friday of the school year... im in the library with "the barkada"... just bored... gonna go home later pa... i'll be with agnes... we're gonna bond... well... school is still a bitch... *sigh* but i have no choice but to stay here for ten more months... i guess i can survive that... i mean... hopefully... well... anyhoo.. will just blog another time... peace... (i love you ari... never forget that...)

Saturday, June 05, 2004

im just home... doing nothing... bored half to death... been doing nothing but watch useless tv shows that i dont even like... no one to talk to... i think ari is out with some of his friends or somehting... erkie is at school, i think... and... well... yes, i dont have much friends... the rest of my "barkada" are around... but we arent very close... the whole summer, aside from when we went to school for review classes, the only people i have been out with are the following: my brother, my dad, my boyfriend, my bestfriend and my really good friend, kince... i guess im pretty shut out from the world... but then again... i dont have much choice in the matter... im just a highschool girl... yep, i guess people would think that i am too young to go out alot and stuff... i dont even go out at night anymore... i mean i used to... but... well... i dont really know why i dont go out at night anymore... maybe a combination of lack of gimmick and lack of permission... *sigh* cannot wait to graduate... i think im getting tired of zobel... and all it stands for... meaning im tired of being locked up tight in my own little world... and believe me... my world is very, very, VERY small....

Friday, June 04, 2004

ei all... here in netopia atc... just watched harry potter3 with ari... he's somewhere in the mall while i am writing this down... hmmm.... what to say... its a slow day... as always... but then again i love slow days... hassle that classes start in about a week... will miss my bed again... *sigh* well... nothings been up... just been bumming at home for the whole summer... watching anime sometimes... been with ari alot... but thats no surprise... um... been with kince almost every other sunday... and erkie when she's free... peoples' love lives have been really chaotic lately... thankfully mine has been a smooth ride so far... i mean... you cant expect not to fight but ari and i have been dealing with our differences rather well... *sigh* my brain is dying... i havent written anything in a long while and the writer within has been screaming to be let out... but my creativity level has been awfully low... for short my brain is dying... *sigh* i actually miss the people of zobel... although i dont miss zobel... i dont know... maybe ive been shut out too much... im a home buddy... *sigh* i havent even gone to the pool or beach the whole of summer... but then again i dont like the sun... rainy days are really much nicer... *sigh* thats it for now... cant think anymore... i think my brain just died...